Yesterday: Lord, I am feeling numb, help me to remember who loves me. You are my Father and hold me as a precious daughter. Jesus, You suffered terrible pain for me, that I might spend eternity with You. Holy Spirit, You spoke to me telling me that You love me. You also indwell me. So why am I just wandering around without joy in my heart? The enemy is after us big time, and I need your extra strength to keep my focus on You! I love You; I need You. You are my tower of strength, my shield of faith. I belong to You, so I know You take care of me.
Last night: Toss and turn. Scratch the itch. Bend the knees. Turn over. That was the physical body. But the mind was the biggest deterrent to sleep; felt like a game of “keep away” with the ball being tossed here and then there, and soon as a thought came, I caught it, but away the thought would fly. I know the night is when the devil loves to bring bad thoughts to mind, and last night he was true to form. It got to the point where I threw myself down weeping before God’s throne, feeling beaten, alone and helpless.
Then I asked my Holy Spirit for help. He is so faithful. He brought me one thought, a Scripture verse: “Why so downcast, O my soul?” It brought me back in line. I didn't recall the whole Scripture, but I knew David wrote the line and then thought about the greatness of God. I looked it up this morning:
Psalm 42:5-8 (NIV)
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
6 My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
8 By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
That verse grabbed my mind to truth~ why am I downcast? Holy Spirit showed me that I had put God in 3 little boxes. Ha! Don’t we do that? Don’t we sometimes put God in a little box? Some people think that God should live by their ideas and ideals, and if He doesn’t then "I won’t believe. . ."
Well I wasn’t that far out of line, but I had boxed up God as too small to handle my problems. No wonder I felt alone and helpless. If I only depend on me, That’s weak! So I went and opened the 1st box~ Holy Spirit. Soon as it was open, “Whoosh” out flew Holy Spirit filling the room and the earth and the universe, and finally me. Yes I felt His love filling me up settling a little satisfied smile on my face. I was back. Then I moved over to box #2, and as I got the top barely beginning to open, up sprang Jesus, standing tall as a mountain. He began bending over and picking up little somethings and tossing them to His angels. Then I saw they were small demons, Jesus would pick them up and the angels would cart them away. He picked from individuals, families, churches, other groups, and finally over governments. (These government demons were bigger and darker.) What I noticed was that when the devils were cleared out, Jesus light filled the spaces. One of my “negative toss and turn thoughts” was there and as Jesus removed the demons, Christ light filled that home. Peace. The third box just disappeared; it was simply no longer there; but Father God was everywhere working all over the world. He was activating His plan in each individual and each country. My God is so huge and mighty, and I have Him indwelling me. I am not small and alone! I have Him with me all the time! His Presence, power and protection is always with me. Nothing is impossible for God, and that is true with His plans for me too, for my God lives in me.
Friends, if you have put God in a little box, Ask Holy Spirit to help you open it up and release the mighty power that is yours, because God is for you, not against you. His love is a strength that stands with you always. Do not fear, He has given you a spirit of power, might and love. Feel His love for you, and thank Him for His awesome blessings!
And get Him out of that box!!