Jesus, You are my teacher, my life coach. You have all my trust. That I am here on this ledge is proof of that. It’s not that I am brave, it’s that I trust You. Jesus looks at me kindly saying gently, “There are many days ahead where you will walk along this ledge, Mary. Know that You are also walking in the hand of your God. Each crevice is just a crease in His palm. Never fear! “
John 12:44-45 (NLV)
44 Then Jesus spoke with a loud voice, “Anyone who puts his trust in Me, puts his trust not only in Me, but in Him Who sent Me. 45 Anyone who sees Me, sees Him Who sent Me.
I like that~ traveling on the hand of God. The journey is long and arduous physically, and challenging to my soul. It's like refining gold~ the ore must be heated to just the right temperature to bring up the impurities so they can be removed. You want to make me pure gold so my life can glorify You. I like that, but somehow it does not sound like a picnic in the park in Springtime.
Suddenly I find myself back on the ledge with the same question: do I go back or go forward? There’s at least another hour before dark, so I get ready to go forward. Here I can walk more quickly as the trail is wider. Praising God and singing a melody helps keep the mind from fear as the next curve appears. It’s the unknown that can strike terror into hearts, so it’s good that I know God is by my side. As my feet seek the nearest spots by the rock, my eyes search for what’s ahead. The sun is nearly down. The ledge narrows again. O God, help me. Rapid heart rate, shallow breathing, my body reacts to the negative thoughts of the approaching darkness and the steep drop off.
Isaiah 27:4-6 (AMP)
Wrath is not in Me. Would that the briers and thorns [the wicked internal foe] were lined up against Me in battle! I would stride in against them; I would burn them up together.
I lean into the Rock. Jesus, You are with me. This is Your trail and it’s scary, but I can trust in You.
Deep breath, walk. I force my feet to move as quickly as possible, trusting that even though my eyes see nothing but cliff ahead, Jesus will have a place prepared to spend the night.
What do you do when a good solution to a problem seems impossible?