Walk with me Mary, Jesus calls. He takes us up the steep path towards the top of the mountain. It is a struggle and my muscles get tired, lungs begin gulping air as oxygen thins. Physical stress test. . . why Jesus? “Nothing of value comes easily” OK, but can we rest for a minute?
Is it worth it I ask myself? Muscles screaming now; get up, because I am not a quitter. I will not quit this climb to the top. Jesus hears my thoughts. “What is the top, Mary? In your heart, what is it you are striving for?” (This is a question to ponder) I am following You Jesus, to the top of wherever You lead me. He looks at me and responds, “Ahead is a fork in the trail. It’s time for you to lead.”
Jesus, tell me which way to go. I will be obedient. But He is gone. I can no longer see Him. Sure enough, around the next bend in the trail is a split.
One way leads to a ledge that is not all that wide and I cannot see around its bend. To the right the trail continues up; it is still steep but safe. Oh Jesus, You do know how to challenge me, don’t You? Somehow, I know He wants me to take the ledge, because I do not like heights and I have to trust in Him for my safety. OK Jesus, I’ll take the ledge; a deep breath relaxing my body; a prayer for His protection; a call to Holy Spirit to guide my thoughts; I step out. It’s wide enough at the beginning for me to walk natural and keep my focus on the trail ahead, not on the drop off. Rounding the first bend the trail continues but I can see it narrows at the next curve. My focus is on Jesus and our first climbs and how He led me with His light. OK. Deep breath. Walk. Focus. Turning sideways I take smaller steps and lean into the rock as I round the curve. I see it goes on quite a ways.
O Jesus, what are You teaching me here? “Mary, I never said it would be easy. Trust Me.” Jesus, I trust You. When I got tired on the climb, You told me I could do it. If You sent me on this trail, You knew I could do it and You will enable me to finish the course. I trust You. Around the next turn the ledge widens again and there’s even a place to sit and rest. “In your journey I provide rest when you need it. Trust Me. Drink and be refreshed.” Somehow, I believe it was not the water bottle He was talking about.
John 6:35 (NLV)
Jesus said to them, “I am the Bread of Life.
He who comes to Me will never be hungry.
He who puts his trust in Me will never be thirsty.
From this space I could see the ledge continuing with no end in sight. I cannot stay here, I must either go on or go back. Night was not too far away. What do I do?
John 12:45-46 (NLV)
45 Anyone who sees Me, sees Him Who sent Me.
46 I came to the world to be a Light.
Anyone who puts his trust in Me will not be in darkness.
Do you come to places where You must either trust God and go on, or give up and return to safer territory?