Jesus did you walk along the shores of the sea alone sometimes to rest and talk with Your Father? As the waves came steadily onto the sands, did it remind You of His heartbeat of love? Did You ever get lonely, Jesus? Once You began Your public ministry, it seems You were never alone. But You had a focused goal then, and for three years You worked continually, though I read You did go off on Your own to talk with the Father. That’s where Your strength came from ~ Your close relationship with God the Father. OK, but then You are also God, the Second person of the Trinity.
Why am I going here? Trying to figure out my own feelings and situation here. You went to Your Father. That’s the lesson for me. Holy Spirit God, You know me inside and out. Teach me or reach in and pull out what I know and expose it to me. My little cocoon has been breached, and the continual exposure to the outside world is chaffing my sensitive skin.
So Holy Spirit, guide my thinking. How do I live in my cocoon now? Do I sew it up and retreat back into it? Or do I climb out and see what God has for me when I am totally exposed, when my dependance is on Him alone, because I cannot break out of this fugue on my own? He always seems to call me to do difficult things where I have to depend on Him. It does keep us close.
OK, Lord, this situation You allowed for good. You are all good, so You have a good plan. Often You do not tell me what it is. . . (I hear You chuckling Lord). Alright, I’m Yours and You are mine! You indwell me Holy Spirit along with the whole Godhead, so help me understand.
Holy Spirit, You take me to a blog I wrote 9/2/13:
"Jesus You called Peter a rock. I claim that I too am rock. My faith pilings stand upon a strong foundation, and that force of faith is downloading into me everyday! The more I trust God, the sturdier I become. Jesus is my footing, and He takes my burdens away ~ every burden I carry goes to Him. My burdens lighten. Jesus trades for His ‘light burden’ which is to trust in Him and the Father. So as I trust in Jesus [Who is the Word] a new toughness and vigor builds in my spirit. As my hunger for the Word increases, the Word constructs in me new awareness and revelation that empowers me to move on the highway journey of life with greater wisdom and determination!"
Here it is, the answer ~ trust in You Lord. Deep in the heart is a pain of living with someone I can’t help. It causes a doubt of self to rise up. I had a conversation earlier this month with the Lord. It went like this: [Me] Ok what am I suppose to do? [God] “Mary, Mary, you always want to “do”. You think with enough knowledge you can solve all problems. Just sit this one out and let ME DO the work.”
If I am not “doing” what am I to do, Lord? [God] “Relax, be at peace, praise Me. Do not worry at that bone.” [Me] Ok. I hear You Lord. I obey.
So what do you do when your cocoon is breached? When you are feeling exposed?