There are mornings I awaken with joy in my soul. Then, like today, there are mornings where there’s blah in my soul. It’s not always been that way, and I do not know why it is happening these days, except in these end times, the enemy's out to get us any way he can. God is showing me that there is a root of dissatisfaction embedded deep beyond my conscious mind. This morning I’m determined to go gardening and dig that root out.
I’ve learned in this type of cultivation the wisest choice is to go the the Master Gardener. Father, You know all things and You know all things about me. Let Holy Spirit be the Rake and the Trowel. This is not an easy commitment for me, because I know Holy Spirit can be a taskmaster of challenges. The good thing is that I trust Him. Some traps of the enemy were set way back in childhood, and we fall into them in surprise. Others were set back then, but we’ve never fully dealt with them, so they are easily available to the enemy to bring us down. Today is the day to begin to find them and delete them with Holy Spirit help.
See I speak with such confidence, but truth be told, it will take a whole lot of Spirit work and my willingness to cooperate. Yesterday I felt like no one really seemed to validate my existence. The patients were great as always, but it felt like staff could take me or leave me ~ no value. Notice the words “feel/felt” which are words of emotion and thus easily manipulated by the enemy. I can see this with my mind. So Holy Spirit, how am I to root it out? Faithfully He responds,
“Ask what is important to you? Where do you want your value to come from? Who do you want to set your value?”
My response to these wise questions is, “the Lord, my God”. So my magnificent and powerful Lord, Your valuation of me is vastly more important than anyone else's. My value to You was set when You sent Your very own Son Jesus to the cross to redeem me. Now I come into my part which is to accept that gift and set my determination to live my life in obedience to You. Since I have done this, that trap is destroyed now, because I recognize and embrace where judgement of my value lies and to Whom.
Have you fallen into a similar emotional trap? What do you do about it? More answers next blog.