With the Word on our lips, we defeat every wile of the enemy; we walk with victory in every step, for our God is a mighty God! When we trust Him, He is always faithful, and that faith and trust will ease our fears, our struggles, our stress. There are always going to be storms and trials, because the enemy does not want us to be in relationship with Jesus Who defeated him so totally. Yes, Satan is a defeated foe already. We just remember to focus on Jesus when attacks come, and trust in Him!
I remember one especially challenging time for me. It involved money~or the lack thereof. There was no money to pay a bill that was due. The only option was to use a credit card check to pay the bill. . . it was something I vowed I would never do. It crushed my spirit! I ran upstairs to bed and began sobbing! As I cried I talked to God, until I heard myself say, “I do not even know if You are real!” That stopped me. I thought, “life is not worth living if You are not real, Lord.” And right there I chose to believe in God, no matter what, forever.
Amazingly enough, when I chose that, God gave me an idea on how to make more money. I went downstairs smiling and began planning immediately. My puzzled husband was astonished at my “mood” swing. When I told him of God's revelation, he joined in with the program.
Hindsight is good, and looking back I can also see how God prepared me for my journey through the cancer attack on my body. It was long range planning ~ no surprise for God. Even the first day the news came “Mary, I (the doctor) have bad news for you; you have breast cancer”. God had prepared me that very morning:
It had been a few days of feeling like a rain cloud was hanging over my head, and that was not like me. So I said to God the night before, “We need to have a little chat!” In my usual quiet time with my Lord the next morning, I was speaking with Him about how it was not like me to be grinchy, and what was going on? Then I happened to glance down at my Bible, which "just happened" (O yeah) to be opened to John 15. My eyes focused on these verses:
If you keep My commandments [if you continue to obey My instructions], you will abide in My love and live on in it, just as I have obeyed My Father’s commandments and live on in His love.
I have told you these things, that
My joy and delight may be in you, and that your joy and gladness may be of full measure and complete and overflowing.
“Jesus”, I said, “I obey Your commands and therefore I qualify for this promise of Your joy and I claim it.” Faithful to His Word, as always, Jesus filled me with His joy ~ full and overflowing! Wow! Complete joy took over my body, my mind, my emotions. (It stayed with me throughout the cancer journey.)
Now it was that afternoon the above ‘bad news’ phone call came. Fear was unable to attack, because Jesus had filled me to overflowing with joy, and nothing of fear or evil could enter. Joy became like an inner wall against any evil thoughts; they could nit enter.
In our quiet time the next morning, Father God told me I was healed, but He did not tell me to forgo the medical treatments. He sent His strengthening message instead:
Isaiah 43:2 (AMP) When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you.
Isaiah 43:1 (Amp) I have called you by your name; you are Mine.
There was a time when I was just as fearful of cancer as many other people, but God carefully took me through experiences first with my Dad and then with a friend, who both had the disease. During these times He taught me how to stand, how to pray, that He is faithful, and that fear is unnecessary. This was all in preparation for my own journey with cancer. The finger of God was pointing at me. Jesus is my Rock, and He walked with me constantly buttressing me with His joy. No fear could come close, because I believed God.
My doctors, nurses, fellow office workers were amazed at my constant joyful demeanor throughout the chemo. When my hair began to fall out, I had my head shaved and bought a wig. First time I wore it to the office one of the very young secretaries noticed the different look. I just said, “ I decided I wanted different looks so I shaved my head to accommodate.” She thought that was pretty cool.
Laughter and joy were always in my spirit, but it was all God. He gave me Isaiah 43:2 and 43:1 above; when the God of the Universe tells you these kind of things, what is there to fear? They are truth, and I believed and was delivered from fear and from the disease. God is so good! He never asks of us what we cannot do.
After the chemo/radiation therapy were complete, He revealed His next assignment: Cast Up A Highway.